The need for a parallel universe

My last drought of words was in November 2008 so i cant say that its an yearly phenomenon. Anyways i am back here...

Getting started with the point. I have been deluged with information recently, and the the number of things happening together is accelerating the flow too... There is the two sides of the Maoist story, the number of views on the India-Pakistan relations, the cacophony that surrounds and discussion on sports in India, there is the never ending debate on religion and atheism,.... there is even the small stories about the people struggling with the system in my college...

And in the middle of all this is me trying to get a picture in my mind of how things really are, what would be the "right" thing to do in each of the cases, and that's when i hit a block and a realisation stuck. No matter how open minded we are, and ready to accept all sides of the story, our conclusions are always going to be biased. For the simple reason that we can't live through both sides of our decisions. We cant live two lives and experience them all. Even if we can, and have the time there is the problem of your second life being tainted by virtue of you living your first life.

For those of you who have seen "Deja Vu", its like the fact that even after living on both sides of the story, there will be a self of your that will be unaware of what happened.

Among all this i have often remembered the parallel universe or the many worlds theory in quantum, i hope its right. And we find a way to see into them. At least we will know what happens when we make a different decision(i don't want any comments relating to the Lost series :) ). Until then I will ask forgiveness for my biased opinions and would like to assure those affected by them, that they were taken with the best of intentions.

Looking at my past.. Just the past...

I hear a lot of noise about the new year coming up, people are busy making resolutions, which i generally don't make. I am not a planning guy, take life as it comes, and do what u like, but then that leaves me out of writing what's going to happen in the the year to come. But i can always write about the year gone by, surely not the events happening in the world, that would be too much and too talked about. So today i am going to talk about "I".. :-) ...

Now lets see... u know human memory is contextual, u remember something when u see something similar to it, and also it gives more importance to what happened most recently, so i remember chocolates getting costlier and lighter more vividly rather than going to Chennai for a workshop, more than 6 months ago. okay, let me list what i can recall

• I got placed(Got a job)(important one, not to be forgotten),
• Chocolates got costlier.. :-)...
• My sis got married
• My father retired
• I gave a seminar that everyone liked at the time(but i dont think i am getting good grades),
• I attended a workshop in IIT Chennai(a lot of wherever i am going now comes because of that)
• A couple of my friends had babies, (making me feel old.. :(.. And wondering if i can ever be responsible enough to have one of my own.)
• I didn't go anywhere on a trek.. :(... Making it a pretty boring semester.
  
• Started off on Twitter. Liked the medium. But the problem is again separating the spam from information.
  
• -- Thats all i can remember right now... Will add more as and when i remember them.
  

I had a dream...

Woke up a while ago, and wondered why i had overslept, there was this strange sensation of quiet because of which i was not angry with myself. Anyways i carried on, and suddenly it all came rushing back to me when i laid my eyes on the camera. I was having a dream wherein i was out somewhere, i don't remember either alone or with someone, but i saw a new bird, i do remember thinking that its a Brahmin eagle and that i was supposed to capture it, however though the colors matched i think they were shaped a bit like vultures(if i don't make any sense, blame my dream). Now comes the interesting part, i came back to my room and got my camera, and wanted to get back and see if i can get the birds, but somehow for one reason or the other i was held up one or the way. Because i wanted to click the birds i did not want to end the dream made me to keep on sleeping, but the fact that i somehow knew that i was in a dream and should continue sleeping made my wish to click the birds a futile quest. Whats interesting about this is that, i had the knowledge about two facts that i acted upon, such that the knowledge of one nullified the other or rather the fact that the mere presence of one made the other an impossibility. But still in the dream they did not contradict each other. They coexisted, the existence of one made the other a reality instead of contradicting it, I think after the idea had taken root, and i had made up my mind that i should not get up, i had latched on to my result, and forgotten about the process that led to it, and followed the other course blindly. I think the same thing happens a lot in reality. We often discard the obvious and base our decisions on past line of thoughts, and just remember the decisions that we had taken. The need of every hour is to take the changed circumstances into account and make fresh perspectives and better decisions, that better reflect our present circumstances.

As i think over this, i am realizing that there are things in my life too that i had decided upon a long ago, but never ever subjected them to a review. I will need to reconsider them. But just as in the dream, we never really realize the mistake until its over. Now the dilemma is, even though i realize that i was wrong, or rather, am wrong, the fact still remains that i am living in a dream, one that may have to wake up from to actually realize how wrong i was.